Mom,
I am so happy I had the privilege of being your son. You were such a good mom. I am beyond grateful for you and I truly cherished our relationship. The value of what we have is immeasurable and nearly unexplainable. I NEVER felt judged or mistreated by you ever - Not as a child and definitely not as the man you helped me grow into. I know you knew I how much I truly trusted and loved you, Ma.
I will miss you so much and I know it will get easier with time to deal with the pain and emptiness I feel. However, no amount of anything will suffice for what I know is lacking, and I’m hurt. I’m so hurt and I keep telling myself I’m ok, but I’m not. THIS momma's boy will often be reminded in those times where I could call on you and I know you would be there to listen, laugh, tell me a story, or offer hard advice from the safest place on earth…my momma. Our relationship was so dope, and I’m glad I had you there for me as a mother and a friend. You made life so wonderful and just being around you enriched any situation. I miss my dad too, but he taught me to be strong and did a lot to prepare me for life without his “presence” - but my mom taught me how to feel basically everything else, so I don’t look forward to feeling them without her. I’m a good dad because of my father…I’m the best dad because of my mom.
From the time I was a child, when your ability to sugarcoat the most unfortunate situations into the most delightful experience possible. (Like the time you literally made us sugarcoated buttered toast. We didn’t know what “wealthy” people ate for dessert and we didn’t care, because we tasted the sweet nectar of the gods in those slices!) To now, when I could call on you to vent, complain, brag, celebrate, or go over my jokes…you were there, you were there for all of it, and I thank you.
Nanny GOAT, You were the rock and the glue of this crazy family. My dad was so lucky to have you and so were all of your boys and all of your grandchild. Jayleigh will always have memories of late nights and swimming with Nanny! You were my girl and I will love you forever. I learned so much from you and I look forward to spreading your light throughout my life and beyond. You are my lighthouse and you shine so bright.
Love,
Your boy, Wee